So, the Opponent has done a marvelous job of twisting reality into a demented dystopian opposite of as it is – from the perspective of the Creator. I can admit my allowing the destroyer to have some dominion I forfeited.
Can you admit that the same destroyer tempts you too to give away your hidden light in exchange for temporary relief? Think thrice!
If you truly want to know where the next level of your enjoyment or ability has been hiding from you, you can begin by looking in the areas that cause ____ in your life to be made about yourself and not about the Big Picture or the Creator. This can help you identify your places of disconnection.
Hence, we are reminded of the need to wage war against the sources of our own negativity.
And how…
~Reflections from “Introduction to the Study of the Ten Sefirot” by Rav Yehuda Ashlag
147) Let me give you an example, so as to bring the matter a little closer to your mind. For instance: While one was in concealment of the face, the letters and the dresses of the Torah necessarily hid the Creator. Hence, he failed, due to the sins and the mistakes he had committed. At that time, he was placed under the punishment of the crude dresses in the Torah, which are impurity, prohibition, and interdictions.
However, when one is awarded open Providence and repentance from love, when his sins become as virtues, all the sins and the mistakes he had failed in while being under the concealment of the face have now shed their crude and very bitter clothes, and wore the clothes of Light, Mitzva, and merits.
This is so because the same crude clothes have turned to virtues. Now they are as clothes that extend from the world of Atzilut or Beria, and they do not cover or hide The Teacher. On the contrary, “thine eyes shall see thy Teacher.”
Thus, there is no difference whatsoever between the Torah of Atzilut and the Torah in this world, between the wisdom of Kabbalah and the revealed Torah. Rather, the only difference is in the person who engages in the Torah. Two may study the Torah in the same portion and the same words, but to one, this Torah will be as the wisdom of Kabbalah and the Torah of Atzilut, while to the other, it will be the Torah of Assiya, the revealed